Last winter my husband, a songwriter, wrote one song everyday in the month of February. I was incredibly proud, and extremely jealous. I had recently thumbed through Twayla Tharp’s The Creative Habit (2003) and was dying to find a way to get myself in the right frame of mind to explore her recommendations; to restart some regular creative practice of my own. Here he was doing just that. Without any literary prompting.
I found all kinds of excuses, mostly legitimate. I had to much on my plate already – work, talking care of a one-year old and her two older siblings, keeping the house from looking like it had been hit by a tornado. But I was also scared. After my daughter was born I was able to maintain a practice of making things in my sewing space and I was taking photos and sharing them on facebook everyday. But the creative practice I felt I needed to focus on improving was my writing. Mostly for professional reasons, but also to create space in my life for extended thought. My intellectual life had devolved into a series of soundbytes fit between the day’s tenth reading of Strega Nona and games with trucks and trains. I was afraid I wouldn’t be able to come up with anything to write about. And I was worried that anything I did write about wouldn’t matter to anyone.
This past week, I got over the hump. While I am on a break from my main teaching gig, I hope to write on this blog 5-6 times a week. So far, so good. Each time I sit down to write, I can feel my muscles getting stronger. Finding the right words and putting them in the right sequence is getting easier. I am finding that I could write about numerous things each day, so finding the one to write about is more of the challenge than having nothing to say. I hope I can continue once I am back in classes this winter. However, I promise not to judge myself if I can’t keep up at the pace I am working at on my time off. Nor will I judge my work by the number of views the blog gets each day, though I am happy to note that people are reading it. People all across the world!